The backstage story
Some weeks ago I tapped deeply into the big Question: “What am I here for, and why was I was meant to be born? I am ready.”
The process simultaneously activated a countermovement of feelings. Instead of standing up to grasp the big vision of my soul, the opposite happened: I withdrew, back on my couch positioned like a cat, frozen. My body stiffened and I felt incapable of making the next move.
As an energy seer, I untangle my cover stories quickly. Sitting on my sofa I could see my emotional light body around me crystal clear. I myself found trapped in a paralyzed state of mind and my emotional light body stood still, paralyzed too. An arctic palace around me reflected emotions of the Ice Queen when I asked, “how do I want to feel?”
Completely fascinated by my own visible aura, I reached out and touched the light body with my fingertips and felt a membrane structure of patterns there, in textures and knots like another skin about 50 centimeters (20 inches or so) from my physical body. I know about the emotional body, and now I was in the middle of an interactive movie, seeing it. Eckhart Tolle calls it the pain body. This body is making us feel. But it is more. It vibrates with the resonance and information that comes into our space, and it gives us feedback about what is near. This light body also swings into action when cosmic light information is coming in for us.
When left unconscious the emotional body is like a garage filled with memories, neutral and flavorless, simply potential. Good things and bad things are stored up in boxes ready to vibrate when a similar energy comes around. It can evoke fear when we step into bravery or freeze when old traumas are resurfaced in our memory, even if those experiences are long past.
That day my pain body was activated with the data of old memories.
It shut me down.
We all have it. Emotional body pain, or fear stored in our pain body, affects our lives and can render us unable to move or act.
But there’s good news.
We have a deep longing for fearless living. We aim for the higher self.
Change your past-embracing memories into future-building energy.
Let me tell you the truth.
When you tap into the powerful dream of your soul, it will frighten you to death because right then you are at the core of your own prophesy.
This is where some people start their personal fires. And many stop there, and leave the work behind.
But we are now willing to remember our dream in heaven, knowing it will change our lives. Maybe when we were 6 years old we knew it; when we were 16 we thought everything was possible.
And maybe the world around us became so loud then that we disconnected from it. Now we need to go back to the time before we stopped knowing.
It’s your time to call out your soul. Here’s what I did when I was frozen in my pain body.
The Shifting Visualization
I sat there and focused on my heart.
The heart chakra is the source of liquid love.
I let this liquid love pour out of my heart and take on the color and quality it wanted.
I expanded the light love so it covered all my emotional body from inside.
(Imagine it is all around your body)
I melted the frozen parts with love.
I steamed over the patterns and structures and watched them dissolve.
I kept on going until my emotional body was free, flexible and expansive like the open sky.
My emotional body became a soft liquid membrane made of a porous material for traveling light.
I want to show you how to turn the frozen state into fluid emotions.
Easily wipe fear away.
Unplug from fear.
Reach out your fingers and feel the texture around you.
Feel the patterns with landscapes of your soul’s memories filled with sound, color and scents.
Scan this body. Feel whether it’s fluid or frozen.
Let your heart pour out the most compelling fluid of persuasive love.
It will spread over the emotional body and melt it into wholeness.
It may have any color and light tone, even beyond our color palate. Celestial.
Take time for this.
It may take days or weeks to melt down.
You will feel how it comes back to fluidity.
And you will come to a new state of mind.
Connect to your reality.
The feelings of the past and the old data do not need to affect you.
We are always free to love.
Love is presence. Not future. Not past. @agni
Fear is with us all the time.
We confuse fear with reality. But this is an illusion.
We are now ready to understand that we are made of stardust; we are made of energy and light. When we are unplugged from the noise of fear, it’s easier to face this reality:
We always have the truth to be our authentic self.
Presence is important. The power of your divine existence lies in the power of now. If you want to live your dreams and see your vision to fruition, the unique frequency of YOU is crucial.
I want to offer you my daily meditation to keep the expansion of yourself alive, so that you can live your life from your soul and your brightest light.
This meditation is a 2-minute instant recharger. You can do it everywhere and anytime: in your car, under the shower, before or after yoga. Your soul is omnipresent, and you can help anchor her where she lives.
So let’s do it together, right now.
Standing preferred. Stand for yourself.
Breathe in and out. Do not force or change it.
Feel the energy of light streaming through your whole body.
Aliveness fills every cell of you.
Let your soul-light shine from every cell in your body.
Now feel your aura in front of you.
Anchor a light marker to feel your space in front of you.
Fill it with soul presence. This is not about expansion; it’s about compression of your existing energy. Sense your light vibrating.
“My soul presence is before me.”
This is your future. This is where you are going.
Next feel your aura behind you.
Anchor a light marker to feel your space behind you.
Fill it with soul presence. It may be unfamiliar, but feel how good it is back yourself up with the love of your soul presence. Your light is vibrating. Lean into your soul-light.
“My soul presence is behind me.”
This is your past. This is where you come from.
Next feel your aura to the left of you.
Anchor a light marker to feel your space on your left side.
Fill it with soul presence.
“My soul presence is on my left side.”
And feel your aura to the right of you.
Anchor a light marker to feel your space on your right side.
Fill it with soul presence.
“My soul presence is on my right side.”
You stand balanced for who you are.
This is the moment to expand above your head.
Anchor your space in the freedom of heaven, the universe, God.
Fill it with soul presence. Feel protected and guided.
This is where your soul comes from.
“My soul presence is rooted in heaven.”
Ground your soul down into the earth.
Anchor your space in safe streams of earth, the creation, the fruitful mother.
Fill it with soul presence. Feel desired and loved.
“My soul presence is grounded in the earth.”
You are home.
Your heart pulsates.
You are here, now.
Walk with the presence.
Check in a couple of times a day.
Strengthen your frequency.
We all want you.
You are the love of your soul.
This is our prophecy.
I will meet you here.
So simple and easy.
Come to send off Jesus The Book & The Series on its pilgrimage around the world.
The “Tour of Wonders” begins in Santa Fe, New Mexico on May 7th at 7pm at the brand-new Agni’s Shiva Shakti Center.
Meet Agni and me and ask us your burning questions in person. We will tell juicy behind-the-scenes stories of Jesus The Books & The Series. We love to surprise and shift Christ Consciousness.
We will start a fresh conversation about our travels with Jesus, Mary Magdalene, and what it means for all of us today. Whatever happens, the miracle is designed for and of you and your friends. Expect to feel the side effects of Christ-love, including bliss, joy, magic, and feelings of unity.
Come. Bring your friends. It’s free.
May 7th at 7pm
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Special Announcement: Meet Agni and me on May 7th in Santa Fe, New Mexico.
We will answer your questions live. Find more about this inaugural event at the end of the post.
When everything—or at least the truth of how it really was—is lost, someone has to walk through time and space to remember the real story. As Jesus once did, I am here to start a revolution.
What we can experience together
in sharing the truth of what happened
Mary Magdalene and Jesus were married.
Among others NBC news and Huffington Post publish:
Scientific Tests Show ‘Gospel of Jesus’ Wife’ Wasn’t Faked
Our live memories
Mary Magdalene searched for the Son of God. She was his lover since they met, and she was there when he was crucified. She was pregnant. She was his wife. She called him back to life.
“Mary Magdalene was silent. She sat there and looked at Jesus and then she looked into the emptiness. Mary Magdalene looked at Simon and then she looked at me for help and then back into the emptiness. In her helplessness, she abruptly stood up and knelt before Jesus. “My beloved,” she said, “this is my heart’s wish and my entire soul. I would like to ask you if you would take me as your wife.” She laid her head in his lap and began to weep bitterly. I grew very calm. It was like an eternal moment that was being created within us, as we waited for an answer from Jesus.
“Arise,” he said. He took her in his arms and replied with loving words, “You shall be my wife, Mary Magdalene. It shall be so. Know that the journey by my side is one of inseparability.” He held her tightly in his arms and I could no longer hold back my tears and I only sensed how deeply profound this decision was. The four of us spent the afternoon alone. The spell had been broken; the wall between man and woman had fallen. Mary Magdalene had broken through the unspeakable, she had hunted the son of God himself and he loved her again. How can one describe lovers whose divinity finds itself in the fire in which their love burns for each other and God? There are moments in which life solidifies so densely that the beauty takes your breath away. Love is the poison of intoxication and we were drunk off each other.” - Jesus The Forgotten Years in South France
Mary Magdalene and Jesus had a daughter, Sara.
She was reborn in 2010.
Our live memories:
Sara is born in South France 2000 years ago, while Jesus is far away.
“Mary Magdalene looked into her daughter’s eyes, “You are Sara, named for our first mother. She carries the legacy. She is a great soul. God will surely know why this child is a corporeal descendent of Jesus himself.” In that very moment, I realized how exhausted Mary Magdalene was and she fell asleep with her daughter in her arms. In her sleep, she murmured, “I so wish he could have been here. But he knows that his daughter has come into the world. I thank you all for the love you have given me.” - Jesus The Forgotten Years in South France
I am in South France when Mary Magdalene contacts me on spiritual level. Since I am used to having conversations with the non-materialized world, this is not unusual for me. She tells me her daughter is soon to be reborn and showed me her mother in vision. It turns out Sara’s future mother in this life was already pregnant, but she didn’t know it yet. She conceived Sara on a holiday in South France. Later we find out her modern-day mother was Sara’s daughter 2000 years ago.
Sara is one and half years old. She is visiting me in my ashram in South France. When her Mum takes the younger bother to bed Sara uses the words she knows to say that she wants to stay with me. Outside in a hanging chair under the stars she starts to ask me something I cannot understand. Through questions and answers by nodding I figure out she wants me to take her to our Jesus prayer room. Each day before then she had opened the door to this room, she looked in and declared indignantly: “The baby is not here.” I knew she was looking for Jesus. So this night the little girl kneeled down in the room and asked me to give Jesus a rose. She asks me to chant a prayer for him. Then she sits still and turns to eternal silence. Then she sighs deeply, with heartbreaking desire.
Sara and her Mum are back for a visit in September. Sara starts to ask several times a day: “Where is my real Mum?” We ask her what she means. She is clear: “My mum in heaven.” I go deeper. “You mean Mary Magdalene?” Sara looks at me with eternal love and I lose myself when she answers: “Yes, the one like you, but not you.”
At a dinner back at home Sara tells a friend of her family: “You know my real mum lives in South France.“
2014, April 14
Sara tells her mum after waking up, out of nowhere:
“Mama, mama my other Mama died!”
“Which Mama do you mean?”
“The one who lived with Durga…”
“What? She died?”
“Yes, she is not in heaven anymore.
She is now on earth.”
“Do you mean she is reborn now?”
“Yeeees, she is now a baby.”
Sara says she wants to find her Mum soon.
Sara was married to my son John 2000 years ago.
One year after she was born in this life, he reincarnated near her so they could meet soon.
Our live memories:
The marriage of Sara and John
“While the sun bathed everything outside in gentle, red tones, I sat silently at the window and observed Mary Magdalene combing her daughter Sara’s hair. She was performing an old ritual to sanctify her daughter for the upcoming wedding ceremony. Mary Magdalene and I had grown old, but we were still full of power and anchored in our consciousness. As I silently observed my beloved sister spirit as she caressed the shimmering, fawn-brown hair strand by strand, I admired her beauty which was marked by age; a life lived that radiated from each of her wrinkles. She was bright and dignified.
It was a very special day. Today, at Jesus and Simon’s request and of our children’s own free will – who had accompanied each other since their earliest childhood – we were preparing for John and Sara’s wedding.” - Jesus The Forgotten Years in South France, Modern-day Southern France/Languedoc
A young woman we have known for awhile comes to see Agni to tell him what nobody else knew. She was pregnant. When Agni tells me the secret on the phone I was in my kitchen, cooking, the receiver resting between my head and shoulder. As soon as we hung up, an immense light appeared to me, soft and caring. “I am John, ( my son in Jesus times ) and I am coming back. I want to be near Sara.” I was the first to know.
Sara and John live in the same city in Germany today. 4 and 3 years old today, their love story spans an arc beyond time. The first time they met in this lifetime, Sara took his hand softly and led him to a secret place. They are good friends ever since. We are signatories of an old love, 2000 years and older; they planned to come back from heaven to find themselves and recognize each other as soon as possible on earth. To be witness of this love story over time is breathtaking. Whatever they will live or how they will live it is open for us to watch.
People desire the lost memories of Jesus.
The keywords “Who was Jesus” get 24,900,000 hits a month in Google searches.
Jesus was a feminist.
The New Testament is now a collection of orally passed-down tradition. Paulus—formerly Saulus—a self-proclaimed Apostle who had never met Jesus in person became the father of the oldest part of the Testament. The four best-known gospels originated from unknown authors using partly known names of other Apostles, thus lending authority to the texts. But those who were there—true apostles and contemporaries—were already dead when these gospels were written. Women and reincarnation disappeared from the stories because the writers did not deem them worthy of making history.
Jesus asks me to travel with him. I must be around 17 years old.
“Jesus, how do you imagine something like that is going to happen? You travel everywhere around the country. How could I possibly accompany you? Don’t you see who I am? I am a woman; I can‘t just wander everywhere with you and write your story. How do you propose to solve that problem?” He said simply, “I will ask your brother whether you can go with me.” I could not imagine how Jesus’ idea could be realized. We lived in Israel, after all. A woman who is not his mother may not travel together with a man. She would only gain a very bad reputation in any towns or villages that she visited. I knew exactly what people would think; after all, we were old–fashioned Hebrew Jews. I would simply be labeled as a whore. – Jesus The Book, Capernum
Jesus knows he will be crucified. One day he tells me:
“Without this love I would not be what I am. If I do not have time to tell them myself, I would like you to tell the other women this. Without these women’s love I had not been able to achieve what I have. Your love is so strong and supportive that I can plant my seed, my words and my mission in it. Every day, unconditionally, you give me this love from your hearts. You lay your love in my path, to give me security and joy on this Earth.”
I would only understand these words of Jesus much later. What I realized at that moment was that he revealed the divine, female nature to me — and he had thanked me for it. I knelt before him and said, “Lord, I was unable to do otherwise, and I don’t believe any woman who has followed you could have. I can speak for all women who are near to you. We do not know anything else than to follow you with heart and soul. That is our good fortune. That is our fulfillment.” He just looked at me and answered, “You are all true priestesses.” - Jesus The Book, Capernum
There were important women around Jesus. Women will love to learn about the sacred women’s circle around Christ and to discover that three of Jesus’ apostles were women. When they hear this, they sit up and take notice.
“Through Miriam’s voice we get to know the women who surrounded Jesus and the important roles they played. Organized religion seems to have relegated women to a secondary position yet here we see women shining in their brilliance as healers and holders of wisdom (“they are a fundamental, primeval force of the universe”). Then, women healers were persecuted and down the ages the persecution has persisted. Yet how refreshing to meet a Christ in this book who is a feminist!”
“[I] feel like I am back to The Mists of Avalon yet it has more spiritual substance. I want to live in that world. The Marys are in it as healers and priestesses…”
Jesus prophesies for our time. He promised Christ Consciousness would be a collective shift.
The real teachings of Jesus will take form today. His promises were for us today to witness coming true.
12 aspects of his promise for the collective
Aspect one: Love’s Realization
Truth and love merge in timelessness to an everlasting river of bliss and creation. This is the never-ending feast of love he wanted us to celebrate.
Aspect two: Bhakti-Devotion
Jesus predicted we will dream a new world. A devotion that will turn our life’s dreams into reality.
Aspect three: Heavenly joy
We will experience heavenly joy as a carrying force in our lives. We learn that living in a seventh heaven is available to us all, as is vibrating from happiness, and mastering our daily life with ecstasy and joy.
Aspect four: The light of Earth
Jesus predicted the light of the earth is a creation aspect of the Christ-Consciousness.
And that the Earth has known about the upcoming new era for a long time and prepared herself for it.
Aspect five: Freedom
This creation aspect of the Christ-Consciousness is freedom from attachment and will strip off old chains that shackle our mind and emotions. It contains the willingness to love limitlessly.
Aspect six: Salvation of the Shakti-Powers
Shakti the feminine power awakens. Shakti powers are a light aspect of the Christ- Consciousness. The feminine receives salvation from old repressions. The white Christ-Light appears as ruby light of Christ in the Shakti light, who comes into the world of creation.
Aspect seven: Leadership and Seduction
Since our expulsion from paradise we have not treated Leadership and Seduction as things that go together. These two aspects of Christ-Love are dancers in a sacred dance of creation.
Aspect eight to twelve are not visible yet. As we continue reading Book 3 of the series they are appearing.
It’s time for new dreams. This world craves new images.
Each year at Easter the whole collective dives into the pain body cultivated since Jesus’ crucifixion. Watching the Jesus movies, I had to switch off the TV this year.
I opened Jesus The Book and started to read. As the vibes of the book took in spheres of love, my pain body dissolved. When people are lifted into a new consciousness, the teachings of Jesus are alive and not killed year after year.
I started to dream. I had visions of Jesus The Book and Series broadcasting Christ Consciousness every year into people’s homes. What if our new images of Christ Consciousness filtered new eternal beauty into this world?
We have a great task to become brokers of a real Christ, elevating the collective consciousness, and not pulling it down.
So let’s do it now, together.
Meet Agni and me on May 7th in Santa Fe, New Mexico and ask us your questions in person.
We will surprise you with Christ-love and a fresh conversation about our travels with Jesus, Mary Magdalene, and what it means for all of us today.
Come. Bring your friends. It’s free.
May 7th at 7pm
Decipher your promise.
What the Blood Full Moon resurrects for all of us.
This is the time I have been waiting for. Seven years ago we started to write down our memories of Jesus, our memories from when we were there. (“We” includes my love Agni, me, and many who lived at the time and remember it.) Jesus always predicted that his teachings would be understood in 2,000 years. The seeds are popping now. Jesus’ prophesies are online.
The message Jesus seeded for this time is encoded in “Jesus The Book & The Series.” It is revealed upon reading. Whatever you are searching for, it is in there. But you must find it for yourself.
The story of Jesus resurrects these days from darkness. It comes not as a messenger, nor a preacher, nor a rescuer from outside. It rises within us. The promise Jesus made for our times is living in the books made for you. So when you read the books, the promise is somewhere in there and will emerge in your dreams, your insights. Maybe Jesus or one of those who walked with him will talk to you. It was locked up till now, but the blood full moon on April 16th deactivated the light code.
The Blood Full Moon resurrects
& The Story of Jesus
Easter, April 2014: These weeks are the probably the most intense and most powerful of the year 2014. A big cardinal cross of initial planets intends to initiate us into higher enlightenment. The blood moon calls out to the red Shakti powers of the Universe dancing in wild ecstasy. And Easter, the feast of resurrection, charges the air with powerful energies. Reaching backward we touch long-ago planted seeds of divine wisdom and rebirth them into prophesies come true.
Recently Bono, the singer of U2, declared he prays to Jesus, the personal one. He believes Jesus made promises that will come true. He and many more: the collective spirit of optimism is more powerful than ever.
We have written our memories.
So you can remember.
Decipher your own promise
for the new heaven and new earth.
How to open your miracle yourself
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Start to read.
The promise for you is in there.
Read and trust it will find you.
Be open for the miracle.
The book will talk to you in a scene, in a sentence.
Images will stir your soul.
When you finish the books for the first time, start again.
I promise it will be different the second time.
The light in you is now activated.
You will find what you are searching for the second time through.
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