March, 2013 | The Female Grail with Durga Holzhauser
March, 2013


is a misled Mantra.

Do not say it. Do not even think it.

Money listens wisely. But like energy, it follows dedication.

One of my best friends put me on edge saying: “I have this dream. I reserved the time, but I do not have the cash.” Wow, I think, why not reserve the money also, when reserving the date and desire?

Do you know money is energy? Money is neutral. It flows and it has no taste. We add the flavor with our thoughts and emotions.

So here is my persuasive secret mantra:
(*It worked in my early days when I decided to fulfill my desire to learn to be an ACC Spiritual Consultant and learn energetic Feng Shui. It worked when I booked my trip to India, with no money. The Divine wanted it, and I did it with no financial resources.)

Fill in the blank.
I will have the money to do this: ____________________________.

Say it loudly for a change of cash flow. (Money listens.)

: Do not limit its origins with your thoughts (Money is everywhere.)
: Hustle and work with all your devotion.
: Open for the space and then let go.
: The universe responds just in time.

First the intention. Then the prayer.
Go open. Go spacious.
Miracles are not exclusive.
Money’s dedication is to serve, not to limit us.

Money is sweet like honey, is an abundant stream of golden light, is coming and going, is there in time, is essential, is from God, is my support. Money is persuasive, is the power of Now, is creative, is falling apart. It is what we think it is, not what we project. Tune into it, and get it right.

Write to us and tell us what you will have money for. We listen closely.



Swipe the inner critic
from your hard drive.

“You can’t be criticized.”
“Right” I say, “definitely not.” (Deliciously self-assured.)
Because the critic is always wrong.

My virtual assistant Jess Larsen reframed my critic mythology habit (inherited by my culture and parents). When I started to work with I her and asked her to peak the performance of my writing. She was totally irritated: “WHY should I? The strength of your voice stands alone.” It took her 1 second to unmask the mythologies of this world that deform artists, performers, writers, creatives, musicians, singers, entertainers, inventors, all atypicals.

We were born creative: insatiably painting, experimentally writing, talking to trees, uncensored and singing loudly with joy, living as the incarnation of women who run with the wolves. But we were thwarted by self-proclaimed experts, ambitious parents, cynical teachers – all people mostly unhappy with their own lives – pretending to be more God than we are.

A whole industry has killed Art and Creativity. Critics measure art by money. But we are at the end of that road. We are now at the horizon of a promised land, bringing art back into all areas of life without selling out. We need art and creativity to reform business, money and the global society. Creative idea hunters wanted.

For the sake of experiment.

Drop perfectionism. It never worked. We just build a frozen and inflexible form that is too tight for our souls.

For the inner and external critics, next time you have criticism going again ask yourself:
Is this my own shadow I am pointing at?
In particular, be wary of these four mythologies.

Mythology one:

“This person puts herself on airs, she always want to be the center of attention, it’s all about her.”
Ask yourself: Do I undermine standing in the spotlight of my light and refuse to take my place in this world?

Why not shine, I ask you, and warm the hearts of those who can see.

Mythology two:

“This person is manipulative. She pushes people in one direction.”
Ask yourself: Am I not taking my responsibility to lead?

Baby, the whole universe is about manipulation. It’s how we start movements of creation and ignite innovations. Let’s move each other in the name of the Lord.

Mythology three:

“I cannot stand how she talks, she dresses, she acts. “
Ask yourself: Do I express myself in the ways I’d wish to?

Dare to express yourself, preempt the critics.

Mythology four:

“This offer is not as good as I expected,” or “My husband should change.” (Uhh, attention here!)
Ask yourself: Where was my inner leadership when I decided to buy something or choose the partner of my life?
Or ask yourself: Am I honest with myself? Is our time over? Has my time to leave come?

Create space for what does not fit you anymore.
Job, relationships and life situations.
Dare to Change.

Critics, go back and fish in your own waters. We want to have love marriages with all the people we work and live with. Raise up your inner critic and confront the killers of creativity. They never were right and never will be.

New ways require a new language.

Maybe the whole universe was and is an experiment.
God is madly in Love with his creativity.
That’s why he is unpredictable.

We choose through resonance. Forever.


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I was just in India for 2 weeks. I spoke at the Win Conference and met wonderful women from cultures that are so different to mine. What do we really know about life in Afghanistan, Africa or India? Still, the commonalities are powerful. I listened to their sorrows and hopes. Me, I was born in a peaceful country full of turbulent hearts.

I want to tell you a story I learned while I was there. On the last day I was asked to jump into a modern play called Seven Women. I decided to leave my comfort zone and out there I met seven women activists coming alive on stage as we walked in their shoes.

I came out of the play with respect and love for those who really change the world by creating their own power of faith.

teach us.

Farida Azizi teach us
the Siddhi powers that carry you through night and fear. You deliver medical supplies to women giving birth at the potential cost of your own life amid and in defiance of the terrible jungle psyche of the Taliban. Teach me your fierce fearlessness in knowing what is right to do, what must be done. (She fights the marginalization of Afghani women under the Taliban. Under death threats, she now lives in the US with her 2 daughters and her undying mission for peace and human rights.) Watch her video here.

Inez McCormack teach us
to raise our hearts above the war of religions. Teach us the prayer of the hearts in the streets, the one that obliterates dogma. Show us the courageous heart that made you an activist where religion failed. Human rights rose in the fire of your faith. (She grew up in a protestant family in Belfast and married a Catholic. From 1960 on she was an activist for changing the lives of the most disadvantaged, for social justice and human rights.)

Mukhtaran Mai teach us
the Sutra that crowns one’s head and erases a thousand eons of karma.The forceful waterfall Sutra that made you rise and face the rapists that stole your family’s honor. Teach me the Sutra that rises above all and heals all cruel regrets, the mantra for a world of innocence that gives you the courage to fight for justice and become an advocate for healing your society. (She took her rapists to court instead of committing suicide, then decided to live and build schools for women and boys to educate both about their rights in Afghanistan.)

Hafsat Abiola teach us
to end the drama of forgiveness. Teach us the final liberation of seeing the two-faced goddess. One face forgives the enemy; the other face forgives oneself for the long-lived drama of staying small and refusing to forgive. (She became an advocate for human rights after the murder of both parents, honoring the heritage of democracy in Nigeria.)

Annabella de Leon teach us
that truth is an eternal law of order, that those who falsify the truth will be punished in the end. Teach us the strength to stay with the deepest truth we were born with. Teach us not to compromise and lose the gospel of the eternal dharma. (She raised herself and her family out of poverty by getting educated. She become a congresswoman and has received death threats for her fight against corruption and for the rights of women, the poor and the indigenous in Guatemala.)
Watch her video here.

Mu Sochua teach us
to be the Shaman who holds the secret of the broken soul. The prayer that calls the soul back into a body split by rape. Teach us the mantra of caresses that carries women through the rest of life after and closes the wound that never heals. Teach us that karma can be misused when used as an offense, as in: “This is your Karma.” Here our religions end. (She was nominated for the Nobel Price for her work against sex trafficking in Cambodia.) Watch her video here.

Marina Pisklakova-Parker teach us
to listen to the voices, the real ones, not the loud ones. Teach us to listen to the unheard voices swelled under the scared sacred. Our society swallows what we do not want to hear. Your blazing hotline in Russia saved many lives and made Russian men listen anew. (In Russia the myth still is alive that women need to be beaten to feel loved. Undercover. And silenced. So she fights a giant’s old myth that had become a religion, and her hotline has provided crisis counseling for more than 100,000 Russian women.) Watch her video here.

What these women have in common: they broke from the destiny of their ancestors and made peace with it.
Then they started to heal the dry soil they were born on.

Wherever you are in this world, you and your life have chosen this too. Rise from there. We need you right as you are. Break the karma of our parents and grandparents. Make miracles out of faith.

This world needs leaders in every corner.
If you want to be a leader, you need to be a healer.
First heal your inner world, then shift your environment.
Then lead what you want to change.
Tell your sacred story.
Travel from trauma to sacred healer.


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