October, 2011 | The Female Grail with Durga Holzhauser
October, 2011


I was a penniless student without any support from home, another surgery in my imminent future, and a broken heart from my first real love marrying another woman.

In a vision I had of one of my inner gurus, he invited me on a pilgrimage to India. I did not have the money for such a trip, but my heart said yes, and the money arrived the next day when I secured a new work project. It was so much money, it was a miracle in itself. Used to traveling in small, spare rooms and scraping by, I suddenly had enough to support me in beautiful comfort as my journey continued.

I arrived in India. I sat on a Five-Star hotel terrace, sipping tea, listening to an elegant Italian woman tell a story about the guru I was about to meet for the first time on that trip.

A very rich lady had decided to turn up in the ashram in a very modest, even poor look, contrary to her usual rich and decorated appearance. The guru invited her to an interview, and in front of all other people in the interview room he asked, “Why does she come to me with her poorest clothes? Does she think I am not worth it? At home she smartens up. But not for me.”
“But Swami, I wanted to be like everyone else here and not stand out with all my clothes and jewelry. I wanted to be a poor pilgrim like others.”

And here was the sentence that changed my life:

“No,” he answered. “You have to live what you are.”

That day and that journey would turn around my whole life.

The pilgrimage opened a new universe for me: (more…)


While financial markets crash around the world, those with powerful visions of a new way forward are taking part in amazing events. What these explosive gatherings of world-changing visions have in common: brave individuals making big decisions. And commitment to those bold visions turns impulses into reality.

One of these events just took place in NY and is still glowing. Rich, hot and happy turned some bright lights on in this world. Not by solving anything, but igniting soulful enlightened business. (If you want to walk through the event, here is the photo stream on Flickr)

In simultaneity of grace, parallel coexisting worlds are developing. I really do believe a parallel world is already open; it is now up to us to plug in to it. It’s just a change of perspective to see into a golden network offering divine invitations.

While the heads of heads of state are smoking, apparently finding solutions for a self-created disaster (that is my opinion), rising stars are initiating a parallel Universe and co-creating the Future. I choose to be among them.

You will find us on the Red Carpets of mavens.

We are deeply rooted in our own life’s values. We are compassionate revolutionaries, graceful rebels, crusaders of the unconventional and protectors of sacred Mother Earth.

Spiritually and business find a new collision in the alchemy of our rising role models.
We need new inspiring stars to shine. And they are among us already:

Marie Forleo

 “Luck or talent doesn’t = success – the ability to make a decision does”

Kris Carr “Be the holistic CEO of YOU. Don’t buy into the system – become a self-care revolutionary.”

Julie Cottineau, (former VP Brand for Virgin) “Your brand is not your name or logo. It is a story well told.”

Danielle LaPorte

 “Infuse your insecurities with courage and tell fear to F*** the hell right off.”

Russell Simmons “Work with the Universe and stay in your hustle. Don’t give up.”

And here is my prayer: More of this! Please! I want to be part of these light bombs that virally infuse this world with enthusiasm and passion. Change makers rock!

Make your decisions now:
Plug into the coexisting parallel universe.
Explore the open dimensions of possibilities of grace.
Millions of angels hold the space.
Thousands of masters offer guidance.
Jesus gives mentorship.
Agni the Lord of fire opens the gates of new creations.

Get on board with a leap into a higher dimension and link yourself with an already-existing parallel universe. God’s empire is based on its success.

The universe is waiting for you to take your place.



Uniqueness astounds and
Specialness is be envied.

Uniqueness unites a big Mandala of many unique aspects;
Specialness wants to stand out, to be different.

Uniqueness is respected;
Specialness has an unmasked envy.

Every one of us is unique.
God is a genius and had no talent at all for repetition.
We are unique but one in God.

Uniqueness is authenticity.

Be proud of your uniqueness, as it will show you who you are.
Let your Uniqueness show you what you love and she will come closer.

In an immature society we experience humiliation for being unique – and sometimes our critics don’t even intend our humiliation.
We created sensitive walls of pride to survive, you see.

I love to work with authentic people who have explored their own uniqueness and cherish it as much as they value the uniqueness of others. From Uniqueness to Uniqueness, powerful energies flow.

Your uniqueness blends you. It’s your label. Nobody can copy it, because God never doubles anything. Remembering, “I am God” will polish your uniqueness and turn mapping your joy your personal discovery plan.

Self-love brings forth our brilliance.

Here’s good news for all authenticity uniqueness freaks:
Seth Godin just ended this boring industrial era of mass production and proclaims the arrival of era of the weird.

I cannot stop reading:

“We Are All Weird” – Seth Godin




Dear Lord,

Would it possible
for one moment
to hold the breath of the world?

Then these maniacs have to gasp for breath
and pause for an instant.

Those who have inklings would have breathing room.

The kids could breathe a sigh of relief.

And you would have the opportunity
to refill the quiet openings with beauty.


Read More · October 20, 2011 · · most popular, visions & prayers


sanctuary for our souls

It’s dawn. Unspoken and untouched. The chants of sacred OMs fill the space with the vibration of welcoming innocence. Then silence for a moment before one opens the gate to sing the Subrabatham. This ancient Sanskrit prayer awakens God in us. Then we sink into our Meditation. God is Love is a prayer wheel rotating in our hearts. Here we are one. I can feel each soul in the room, each one’s own unique presence.

In La Lumière, the ashram I built in South France, we gather in the morning and unite in oneness. We also gather in daily evening meditation to calm down our souls and to free ourselves from the naturally accumulated residues of daily life.

We gather in the temple, where an altar offers sanctuary.  It’s a place untouched by the world, where the soul feels free to expand in divinity.

For me, opening the morning is soft and kind. Diving into my connection with God first initiates a flow for my whole day and opens my source of power. Here I am. Before the day starts and every evening for 30 minutes I center myself beyond the texture of the world. Mediation takes me inside in myself. Here is God and love. I can expand, be free and be light.

Click here to enter La Lumière.

My personal altar style combines the monastic moment of serenity embracing Christ love and the sacred beauty of Hindu wisdom and the Goddess.

A personal Altar is dedicated to our inner world and fills up with positive vibes in every Mediation. It is a spiritual island in our busy world. What we see in the altar reflects our souls. Here you can find shelter for inner sanctuary in silence. 

An Altar is a place dedicated to the unlimited world. While the world turns, the sacred space around the altar stands still. It’s a place of direct alignment. No object is without meaning and the matter has her natural order. The momentum breathes.

A space for the primal heart

Your personal altar filled with rituals will offer you a home for your soul. It’s not a matter of religion, style or environment. Altars will breathe divinities wherever you give them a place. It’s a sanctuary in the middle of a chaotic world. Just for you and your soul.

The Durga shrine

My personal reminder in the center of all hearts:
Eternity is beyond illusions.



Short memo

Subject: Creator and creation are one

We have all one source. Call it God, call it whatever you like, because the result is the same. What’s essential to remember is that we have one common father, one origin, one Oneness. So whatever we think about others or feel about them, we think and feel about our Selves.

God is the creator. Everything God has ever created is the Creation. Creation is God Mother. In her, God reflects his dreams, his thoughts. So whatever you dream of God dreams with you, whatever you experience enriches the whole All. God is the breath of the Universe.

The Creation has many names: some call her Great Mother, some Divine Mother, some Goddess or Universe. We are all expressions of the Creation. We are the most powerful outcome of divine creativity.

Our drama is created by thinking that we are separate from God. All this is the illusion of being decoupled. All discords in creation are unplugged from the source of power.

Creation in its purity is eternal evolution without any judgment. It’s all about experience and love; it’s a divine adventure of learning and joy.

The Creator and Creation are deeply in love with each other and are melted in a divine orgasm. God reflects himself in Creation, his wife, and Creation experiences herself in God. God is Father. God is Mother.

As heirs of that sacred bloodline we all have genes of God inside. It’s our core, the powerful source of fire. And we are also Creation, the power creating creativity.

We may have forgotten all this. The good news is we can also change it!!! We are also Creation, and there are for no victims of life, but instead emperors and empresses.  Each of us is a glittering fascinating whole Universe. 

Time to remember…


Read More · October 17, 2011 · · fiercely feminine, most popular


part one: Why now

: that world financial markets crash
: that earthquakes tremble our minds
: that corruption and fraud shine through transparency
: that tsunamis flood our emotions
: that Fukushima exploded in our minds
: that wiki shows the leaks in our society
: that new revolutions are staged by masses in the streets
: that egos are in mega crisis

: that social media is out of control
: that indigenous create sacred prophecies
: that new technologies astound
: that consciousness shifts
: that the universe shows its black hole
: that grassroots grow between the toes of giants
: that an apple changes our ways of communicating
: that healing is a promise on a rising horizon
: that 3 women share the Nobel Peace Prize
: that Jesus the Book wished to be born?

Today’s big brokers’ comforting dream during the night is about recession. They pray for a big crash, knowing that they can make their greatest opportunities – making money – from a fallen market, but only for those who know how to capitalize on it.

It’s time to dare to strike out to new dimensions. (more…)


I build altars everywhere,
because I am convinced of their healing vibes.
Here starts the series:

altars /part one:
offering uplifting, prominent space to the spirits

From the Latin “altare” (plural = altaria), probably originally meaning “burnt offerings” (Latin “adolere” = “to worship, to offer sacrifice, to honor by burning sacrifices to”), but influenced by Latin “altus”, meaning “high.”source: www.dictionary.com

sacred allures

  • Altars attract the spirit into everyday matter.
  • When you invest deeply in something that raises your spirit every time you see it, it will inspire you back. When you create meaning in your own alter rituals, specific energies come to life.
  • Altars create little vortexes that attract divine flow.
  • They stimulate intuitive consciousness of the positive awareness of universal abundance.

gods and goddesses are amazing collaborators

Ganesha, the divine remover of obstacles, helps to remove procrastination.



Thank you
You are reading this right now. I feel you and your heart beat. Connections are the most precious jewels we share. May the Universe bless our encounter and give us both the grace to grow.

I am so happy to announce the birth seeds of “www.thefemalegrail.com.”
We are online!

Whenever we enter a new stage in our life, we die and are reborn at the same time. Finding one’s own sacred voice is another rebirth, one of millions whenever a new era starts. Thefemalegrail.com is a rebirth for me. I am alive. I am ready to put myself in the line of fire.

A letter to the tribe

Hello dearest friends, my tribe, strangers, searchers, finders, followers, interested people, curious people, great souls…

It is my life story that brought me here.

The life story of the Female Grail began when I was 24, when in a splash of light, Jesus appeared to me and ignited a revolution of my life and my Self. Twenty years later, the publication of book number two in a three-part series, Walking with Jesus, is forthcoming, and we have begun recording book number three (more on that soon).

Over these years, I have become a revolutionary myself. The deeper I remember my story, the more my life turns into a blissful journey of world-changing visions and a passionate rebellion for the divine.

Some things I know:

Aligning with our own sacred path is salvation.

Life in all aspects is initiation itself. Self-realization turns our life into a walk of real “ fame” when we remember our heaven.

The www.thefemalegrail.com is a reminder that the future is now and we have a big opportunity to open a new chapter of humanity on earth, choosing freely our self-defined spirituality.

I am not a Christian. I have experienced the abundance of Christ love and I will share it with you. On the Female Grail blog I will write about the teachings of Jesus how I understood them when I walked with him. I thrive on the memory of the thrilling feelings of those days, when divine love was truly alive.

I adore the Internet as the mirror to our consciousness, with all its possibilities. I see social media as paradigm shift for transparent consciousness, inspirational truth, and the voice of people co-creating our life on earth.


TheFemaleGrail.com will offer you my sacred feminine voice inspiring truth, curiosity for new perspectives about how Cosmic Christ love shifts, ideas for change, my insight from universal downloads, creative inspirations, enlightened business and enlightened life style, offerings that inspire me and my story.

I bow. To you and the divine creation.
Love always,